TOBY'S NEW MYSPACE BLOG
December 18th 2006
(As posted on MySpace Blog on
February 24th)
Back In
The Saddle... Again.
Went
on tour with British Band Thunder in Feb this year after a long lay off
of nearly 4 years. Didn’t know what to expect really, the venues were
huge in comparison to the venues I had played on my last stint of
touring, being smallish clubs. These were venues that I had played many
times in the Angels years, but it had been a long time between so it was
a buzz to think of returning to them.
Thing
is this folks; if you have it in your very make up, your soul, your
Fabric, it doesn’t change. The feeling of anticipation, that moment of
anxiety and fear as you step out onto a stage to entertain a room full
of relative strangers is, well addictive. Seriously. For me living in
this world we have created is bemusing and having spent so much of my
time writing songs to try to figure it out, and subsequently playing
those songs in an attempt to try to make my feelings known, and perhaps
connect with others, I have never lost the urgent, the inescapable
desire to keep searching. To keep creating a feeling. To keep
connecting.
Ok,
so it is hard to explain, I lose myself most of the time trying to.
Anyway to return to the point; the Tour was offered and I accepted that
invitation with fuckin bells on.
Got
to the first show in Newcastle. City hall. Big. Sold out.
It
immediately felt the same as it had all those years before. I had in
fact played the venue on a huge tour the Angels had undertaken in the
early nineties, and also with Aerosmith, Marillion and American Rock act
Cinderella as a support act, so I knew the venue very well.
Any
way I digress again. Back to the Thunder tour.
Heart
in mouth I remember the house lights dimming, after the tour manager
nodded at me for approval. It is this moment that gets you the most. The
adrenalin is pumping, the throat is dry. A kind of beautiful terror
envelops you. Lights down, here we go. Panic! Will my guitar work? Have
the crew remembered to put my picks on the mic stand? IS MY FLY DOWN!!!!
Then…walk out, calm and the first words…
‘Hello Newcastle’ |
2007